Something was just not quite right!

The first clue should have been the fact that I didn't want to kiss! Then the simple fact that the thought of touching "it" grossed me out and made me ponder whether I had turned into a celibate lesbian should have been an even bigger clue that something was just not quite right!

I had an interesting experience last night. It left me pondering this thought: Why do I always make an effort with guys after they leave and or want to call things off!?! I mean I really didn't care until the guy was walking out the door with his bags packed on the way to the airport. It brought me back to last summer when I knew things weren't quite right but the minute "he" tried breaking up with me, I found myself working hard to salvage something that again was just not quite right.

Is this something that is typical of most women? Has anyone else ever experienced this? It's not like I appreciate things more once they are gone, it's more like once they want to leave I fight for them to stay regardless of the fact that I'm not even interested.

Why is it so hard as a women to be left???