The first clue should have been the fact that I didn't want to kiss! Then the simple fact that the thought of touching "it" grossed me out and made me ponder whether I had turned into a celibate lesbian should have been an even bigger clue that something was just not quite right!
I had an interesting experience last night. It left me pondering this thought: Why do I always make an effort with guys after they leave and or want to call things off!?! I mean I really didn't care until the guy was walking out the door with his bags packed on the way to the airport. It brought me back to last summer when I knew things weren't quite right but the minute "he" tried breaking up with me, I found myself working hard to salvage something that again was just not quite right.
Is this something that is typical of most women? Has anyone else ever experienced this? It's not like I appreciate things more once they are gone, it's more like once they want to leave I fight for them to stay regardless of the fact that I'm not even interested.
Why is it so hard as a women to be left???
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Oh I definitely understand this. For example, I would have a fuck buddy or a one night stand or whatever. I would feel little for them, not really care. But once they left, suddenly I started to want them, started to need their attention. It was bullshit because I need I truly didn't care or want them, yet I still found myself agonizing over it only because it was done. The female psyche is an odd and confusing place.
celibate lesbian....lol.
I dunno, but I think it's not only women, a human thing. We always long for things after we are sure they will not be with us any more. Finally when it settles, when U surely know its the end with the person, and such and such is for ever gone, no matter how much love or less we have for the person, that last few hours, mins, are very hard and we try to salvage it or bring it back.
Chris - Yes, yes it really is.
Dem - lol, I love that you think my smart ass humor is funny!
Great point! I am a little relived to know it's not just a women thing especially after my last pms episode, lol!
I have done the same thing. There is nothing wrong with you. See you want people to care. To want to want you. When that attention is no longer around I feel that fear comes in and we almost wonder if that will be the last person that truley cares. But that is how I feel and we are all differnt, so yeah..
I love it when men don't want me. Its hot.
Oh yeah Valley Girl, SO FREAKING HOT!! Always makes me feel so sexy, lol!
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